I never realised how very noisy it can be!
There’s such a difference between being present in a house with another person you love, both engaged in different, quiet pursuits, and being alone in that same space.
I’m used to spending time on my own, in fact David was away at work all day, often 12 hours at a time. He went fishing from before sun-up to after sun-down. He had overseas travel sometimes, for a few days at a time. I enjoyed the freedom, being able to choose when I went to bed, when I eat my meal, without any consideration for anyone else. But after four years of being with him virtually all the time from his major surgery to his passing, it is hard to give up. And we’re in lockdown, so no visitors either.
Being alone is now a challenge rather than a pleasure.